So the last couple of months have been borderline psychotic. With just school alone, things were getting too intense; trying to juggle homework and studying alone gave me no time for sleep, let alone anything else. and ofcourse being here in Kuala Lumpur is somehow always as toxic as any one city could get and that is draining on its own.
On top of all that, i moved into a new place and thats just another insane episode altogether with furniture shopping, and renovations and having to pick out all the small things like curtains and flooring was something i would have enjoyed on any other circumstance, but with so much going on, this meticulous process seemed so uneccesary and somewhat annoying.
As school ended, i was anticipating a good long holiday, where i could first get all the sleep i needed since i was so mentally and physically exhausted, and read, laze around, hang out with friends i hardly saw anymore, and just be at a relaxation point i know i fit best in. But then as unexpected things happen, i was suddenly told i had to leave to Perth for my August semester this year, instead of February next year as planned.
Discovering this information only a month before i would actually have to leave was another degree of psychosis. I had a TON to do and there i was thinking this was the start of a relaxing holiday. I had to figure out accomodation, finances, my visa (which is another insane process on its own.) I had 3 weeks to mentally prepare myself for leaving (though i gave up and couldnt quite give a shit) and to console myself for;
1) missing Incubus's concert here in Kuala Lumpur when i had been eagerly awaiting it.
2) not being here for Daddy's 1st year death anniversary (holy cow its almost a year)
(and well other important events to me but really i got over those pretty quick, its THOSE TWO which i took some time getting over. )
so everything was on its way, and i was on my way to turning into a dried prune from the stress. So when my friends talked about a getaway to Sibu Island, i jumped right in it. everything was great, i finally got the rest and relaxation i needed. I was out in the sun, taking strolls by the beach, reading, swimming and snorkelling, talking to deers- I WAS ALIVE AGAIN! ( yes yes, prior to that i was some zombie robot hybrid )
but ofcourse, what KL soap opera would my life be if there was no twist. (and i wonder why i still get suprised everytime it happens) long story short- there was some complications with my scholarship and i wont be flying off in August. or atleast i dont know anymore. and i've just been plain confused. its quite a mind fuck really.
wow. that was a mouthful. hmmm..
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